I am sitting on my Glasgow bedroom floor, drinking another cuppa and thinking how much life has changed, let’s say, from the last time I was able to discipline myself and actually write here. It’s a strange thing how sometimes the things we prioritise, can change without noticing it. That’s why I think I need to glue some do-to’s to my forehead, so I will never forget.
School is done for this year. Yes, I’ve been living and studying in Glasgow officially for one year and let me tell you- the time really flew by. That makes me always remember the saying, that: “start doing what you wanna do n o w, because the time will past anyway.” I really should remember it more, because the way how time flies is already a great cliche.
Life and the time what has been flying by though, has been beneficial. You know, sometimes you do something because it is out from a habit or just doing it automatically, but then something changes and starts making a new sense. It is not a tragic change, but everything will suddenly go into its place, you have a vision of something what wasn’t there before and so on.
I’ve always had an idea what I want, what I will become and how to pursue it and I still have. The thing was, that I had so many little side things, what I felt, makes me ME as much as the things, that already creates a plan to me. Do I make any sense right now? So my plan felt flawless, but it didn’t feel full, as many things that have made me who I am, were set aside. So that made me doubt some things, such as am I in a absolute right path.
What I’ve learned from my short period of life, is that everything will work out. I try to remind myself to worry less, because whatever worry I’ve ever had, it always have worked out. So was that one weekend in England, when I was bicycling in the countryside, surrounded by rapeseed fields and the sun was shining and everything felt calm, happy and good. Dreaming out loud is one of my favourite things, because you never know when someone can help you finish your dream or help you to create any sense out of it. So something from that day, helped me to put a “period” to my goals, dreams and wishes. It re-created it a little bit, but suddenly it started to feel full, not just flawless. One of these moments, when your vision of yourself for the next 10 years, and more, makes sense and you are able to see it so clearly, that you could almost touch it.
So for now, I am excited for my updated new chapter what I am living. Nothing hasn’t really changed, but some things have started to make more sense. And they are new and still need to be fitted into the old plan, but this is what makes me excited- the progress. Work in progress. I thrive of doing work what is beneficial for myself and earning things by not just getting them, makes me excited. All the sleepless hours, scheduled day plans and research how to get what I want, makes me excited. So. Very. Excited. It’s been a while since I felt that feeling and I am happy that I found it again. It really makes me me.
So the biggest add up to the plan is that I will give my passion for food and drink a try and I will make a plan how to fit it in to my social media life, that it will not make it messy or confuse the image, what has been created, because I still do believe that one should focus into one thing, not to be labelled as 5 different things. But I need to give it a try. That might make a new category to that little place here, or make a new one. But one thing I know- that makes me well excited. One of those things, that I can already see where it can grow and what it can become. Now it just needs to be fed with some work. And I am willing to do the work.