9th of October was officially the day when I can say that I’ve been living in Scotland for one month now. What is crazy is the fact how the time flies! I literally feel like I’ve been here only for few weeks. I feel like I left Iceland just few days ago. Things are already old, but still somehow new. It’s a strange feeling. And at the same time the same feeling freaks me out. I’ve probably have set myself many goals and missions to achieve turning these 4 years and now when one month is over, I’m already freaking out as I feel like I haven’t done as much, as I wish I would. I’m working always the latest in the studio, but I wanna have more. I wanna do more. I wanna be more.
This is what makes me feel calm every now and then. Makes me take a breath and slow down sometimes, when needed. I think all that matters in the end of every day is the feeling, how do you think you did today and what you can improve the next. As long as I can go to bed every night, feeling good that I didn’t waste some precious time, I am happy. The alarm goes on in my head only when I realise that I was a potato who didn’t do something.
I think I’ve never understood people who can say, that they are bored. How is it possible to feel bored? How can one young person be bored, doesn’t fit in my head. When you are bored, it means you have nothing to do. And having nothing to do is the worst feeling I can imagine. And don’t get me wrong here- I truly believe that these kind of moments are really important every now and then- just doing nothing. Taking your time. Meditating, connecting with yourself and all that kind of stuff, what every person does individually. But I mean the boredom what comes in the middle of the day, when people have time to write it in Twitter and things like that. How one can be bored? There is so much out here! Discover, explore, do that one “something” what you always wanted to do. Read that book, listen that album, go to run. Jeez, do something! Don’t waste your time!
Second thing what I’ve noticed when school started is that people seem to find a reason for some comforting whining about how tired and dead they are, when the things what they usually do is to go to school, do some school papers and maybe work. And I mean yes, it is a lot to carry but it’s all based on our own decisions and if it’s something what we want, we should embrace it instead of whining about it.
Sometimes we can’t change the situation but we can change how we act in it.
And this is totally up to us. Whining and complaining how tired we are, doesn’t lead us most of the time anywhere else than being more tired.
Of course it probably depends on what are our goals and who we actually wanna be or become in the end of the day. If you are okay of being constantly tired, then I think you are moving in a right direction.
But other than that… Scotland has done some amazing job with me or I have. It is this beautiful feeling and understanding that I am exactly on a right place on a right time. If I always have felt that Iceland made me the the best version of me, then Scotland really does it too and even plays it up a little. But exactly for some amount of time. This period in my life is just for hard working, to get where I wanna be after few years. Being 28 is not that far away.
Those photographs I took 2 days ago, processed and scanned them yesterday. This is almost the only photographs I have right now. Soon I will invite you to my daily life with proper photographs.